When? Everyone keeps telling me it’ll get easier, and I know they mean well, but I want to know when? Tuesday will be two months and it just seems to get harder. Dad thinks I’m keeping too much inside, and maybe I am, but there’s only a few people I can talk to and they are hurting as bad as I am.

I know this blog is here for this very reason. I wanted to talk about Mama and her life and I guess that includes her sickness and death. Instead of letting it sit here, maybe I should use it. It will be good to have a place to remember good and bad times. And to grieve without worrying about making someone else sad.

It’ll be 2 weeks tomorrow since Mom passed away. When do you stop counting like that? How long does it take before every tiny thing makes you think of a memory? When will I be able to stop talking about her death on this blog and start talking about her life? She really was an amazing woman and I want everyone to know her.

Soon, I hope.